I’ve been putting this off for a while now….

Phoenix drawing.I’ve been putting off writing this blog entry for a while now. Not that there’s anything in it I’ve not posted elsewhere before, but it is one that I feel it’s time to push into the mainstream.

The reason why I hesitate (and even cringe) is because the subject matter is so unusual that it will cause a conflict with people’s perceived reality and believe systems.

Trust me when I say that it certainly did with mine.

So deep breath and here we go.

What if you were told that you were a mythical being?

What if you had the same message in your thoughts for most of your life?

Moment after moment? Hour after hour? Day after day? Year after year? Decade after decade?

No matter what you do, no matter what you try and no matter how much you protest, that message never stops… ever!

And over those decades, amazing things happen and people come in and out of your life to validate that what you are hearing is not just in your mind, but a very real thing.

Well, this is my life in a nutshell.

This has been going on since 1988.

I’ve spoken a lot about various incidences in my life: Those strange stories that defy rational explanation. I’ve discussed my guides and done plenty of channellings when I’m stuck for ideas or answers to topics I want to write about.

And in a way, I’m comfortable putting those out there, because to me, they make sense and others seem to get something from it.

I’ve also discussed how my guides keep on telling me messages over and over until I get what they mean and I  do get a lot of repeating messages which come and g over the years.

But there is one that doesn’t stop no matter what.

The message is: You are The Phoenix.

It doesn’t end there either. My guides keep on referring to me as Phoenix. On the rare occasion they’ll call me by my name, but generally, it’s Phoenix.

There was a period of time where events lead me to completely shunned anything phoenix, but it didn’t help. In fact, everything became stronger, and no matter what I did, I would see the word Phoenix in almost everything I did or would hear it mentioned somewhere.

What was more, people around me, once they started associated with me, said they saw the same thing, too.

You could argue that’s confirmation bias, but that doesn’t account for everything that happened, especially the two years where I was extremely anti-phoenix.

Most people have heard of what a phoenix is nowadays, but for those who do not know, a phoenix is a mythical bird that was said to live for many  years, and then build a pyre and consume itself flames, only to rise again more powerful and beautiful than before.

It was primarily associated with Ancient Egypt, though it was been noted in many other cultures under different names. The death and rebirth part appears to be the more endearing part of this myth: The rising from the ashes, in spite of all the odds.

And for a while, I wondered if that is what my guides were trying to tell me: That I had risen from the ashes.

But no, that wasn’t it at all. In fact, they were being quite literal.

Now, last time I looked, I looked like a human. Not a bird. (Though, as I recently blogged, I never really felt all that human.)  However, my guides assure me that what they are talking about is a representation of energy.

When I finally started to look into what was going on, a story began to unravel that surpassed anything my imagination could conjure up and over the course of the years, what I ended up with was an amazing, yet cohesive sequence of events that made the statement ‘You are the Phoenix’ look like common sense because it only got stranger from there.

Around 2011, I tried to write a brief summary of what happened and the people involved. It just didn’t work on the levels I was looking for. So I decided it was time to write a cohesive history of what happened and everything that led up to it happening.  It’s taken me around 2 years to finish it. It was made especially hard because new information was (and still is) coming in all the time, putting new perspectives on things.

The book is called I Am The Phoenix.

It is for sale for USD3.99 in Kindle format from Amazon and is written in the same style as The Empath Guidebook. (My free e-book.)

It’s also available on amazon.com http://www.amazon.com/am-phoenix-Mr-Gary-Leigh/dp/1494378566

My intention is to provide a reasonable sample of this book on this blog, so people can get a taste for it, and decide if they want to hear the rest of the story, which, even if I do say so myself, is incredible.

Soul mates: Twin souls and Family souls or I think that’s it.

Twin flames

So far, we’ve covered Romantic Soul Mates and Twin Souls.

Soul mates are those who you resonate with on the same levels, and there may be many of them in your life.

Twin Souls are literally the other half of your energies, but also everything you are not. While drawn together, they may not be a good match.

This entry, we will look at twin flames.

How is a twin flame different? Unlike a twin soul, it is not actually your other half and unlike a soul mate, it is not someone who you happen to match your energies with.

A twin flame is someone who is from the same source as you. They are, in essence, soul family.

On a soul level, they may be equivalent to a brother or a sister. On the 3D level, they might be a stranger that you’ve just met, but instantly click with.

When you meet a twin soul, you will know it. You will feel that connection and kinship.  It may even stir up previous life memories that you had together.

The relationship may not be a romantic one (though there will be times when you certainly would desire that energy to be in your life intimately) but it will certainly be one where you have found a person who can understand you and accept you for you without conditions.

Family soul mates

These are people who come from the same soul family.  There can be many, and they will feel more like a brother, sister, son, daughter, uncle, aunt, and so on.

It is certainly not unusual for group of such people to be born into the same family. They will move and act as one unit when it’s them against the world, but it would not be unusual for them to fight among themselves, too.

I’ve come across people who have felt like sons and daughters, and who have viewed me in the equivalent way.  It’s a very interesting experience to say the least.

That pretty much covers what I’m aware of. If I have missed anything, feel free to let me know.

Soul mates: Twin souls – My sister or but I’m an only child!

In the last entry, I recounted how many women, who had the same type of energy, were all attracted to me and eventually, around 2012, it began to dawn on me that something wasn’t quite right there.

By that stage, I had become aware of whom I was in one of my past lives, and that I did indeed have a sister who I was married to. Mind you, I did not make any connections as yet to the past ladies who were energetically drawn to me.

All I was aware of was that logically, if I was who people said I was, then I had a wife and sister out there.

So foolishly… VERY foolishly, I sent out a soul call for her to come and find me.

It wasn’t too longer after, maybe two or three days, when suddenly I got an e-mail from this lady who lived in Canada asking me for help, claiming that her soul was in so much pain, and she wanted me to contact her.

I never refuse a call for help, but she insisted that I ring her up within an hour of responding to her.

The moment I connected to was when I knew she was part of my soul family. I wasn’t quite sure exactly who, but within a few hours, I was very certain she was my past life sister.

So, like a fool, I suggested it to her, and it was like a dam burst. She told me that it was me she has been feeling, and had been looking for me so she could stop the feelings.

She remembered events that I had only thought were part of my imagination and if I had any doubts about it not being her, her e-mail address gave it away, as it described the exact thing she was associated with.

She told me: I shall let you choose your path. And I will never try to influence you. I think this affected me a lot more than it did to you 

You forgot one thing that I was your wife and your decisions affected me. You decided to do things without thinking about me. I wish you would think how I would feel. But I don’t know why that meant we were not together. I still can’t accept it.

She was also strongly pushing me to go over and be with her. I knew, though, this would be a very bad idea.

If I had thought that other avatars were hard to resist, she left them for dead. She had the looks, energy, intelligence and power, but I also knew she would not be good for me. If I dropped everything and ran off to be with her, it wouldn’t be too long before things went pear shaped, and I would regret it.

I told her that I couldn’t give her what she wanted, and she was not happy.

I didn’t hear too much from her after that and I felt something shift from her energies, as though the spirit had left.

She cut off everyone associated with me and moved on. And so did I.

So, I asked my guide about what was really going on here. The response was that over the course of my lifetime, she had been obsessed with me, but at the same time seeking revenge for being jilted, and had been using her avatars to connect to me whenever there was an opportunity to.

The thing I discovered was that she was pretty much everything I wasn’t. One of my friends noted she was pretty much the opposite of who I was, and what I did.

I realised that she would have been unhealthy for me on many level, including her obsessiveness and that fact that we both had completely different outlooks and ways of doing things.

She would not have allowed me to even talk to others, let alone work with them and help them.

There’s a lot more I could say about this particular case, but I’d rather not.

The point I’m trying to illustrate here is that your twin soul does not automatically mean a healthy relationship. There’s a reason why we don’t both incarnate at the same time.

I do not know if this is the last I’ll hear from her but personally, I feel that there is no gain for me to be with her in this life time.

Soul mates – Twin souls or the other half of me

Twin Souls

Many of us have heard of the twin soul and many more are in search of theirs.

But what exactly is a twin soul? It is said to be the other half of your soul aspect. Whereas you’ve incarnated as a male or female (or maybe both or neither!) the other half is the other part of who you are.

As a general rule, and from my observations, it’s actually very rare for both soul aspects to be born at the same time.

However, it wouldn’t be unusual to mistake a soul mate as a twin soul.

In theory, finding the other half of your soul essence sounds like a wonderful thing to happen to you. It would make you feel complete and you would be in harmony with the other person’s ideas and desires.

That’s the fantasy.

The reality is a little different, though.

Should you come across your literal other half, it will feel like two magnets pulling each other together. There will most likely be sexual energy on a very intense level, and it will be very hard to resist, even if you’re already in a relationship.

Now, I can’t speak for others of course, but I can speak for myself, and the experiences I’ve had in regards to this.

I don’t normally share this story, but I figured what the hey:  I’m trying to illustrate a point here.

My twin soul hasn’t actually incarnated at this time that I’m aware of, but it would seem that she has been using Avatars:  That is, women who carry her energies.

I first noticed this around the year 2000, where I met someone, who happened to be local and felt this crazy energy connection with her.  On top of that, she looked amazing and was irresistibly beautiful.  Being married at the time, she was very hard to resist, but I can claim to have resisted.  Interesting enough, someone had told her that we had been brother and sister in a past life. In any case, I stopped seeing her as a friend, and we drifted apart.

The same thing occurred a couple of years later, where this lady I knew online made the same energetic connections with me. It didn’t matter that she was in a different country, the pull was just as strong, and was just as hard to resist.  Also, the same intense physical attraction was there, too.

At the time, she claimed she loved me so much that it hurt, but as I still married (in spite of my relationship being on the outs by then) I didn’t feel it was right to do anything.

What was interesting about this case, though, was soon after, she told me that what was causing her intense feeling was that an insane spirit that loved me had attached herself to her, and using her to get to me.  With the help of one of her psychic friends, she had managed to remove it, and the feeling left her.

I shrugged, thought nothing of it, and carried on.  We did try to see if there was a chance for a relationship after I separated, but it didn’t work out as she become almost psychotic in nature and seemed to drain my energies.

Then a year later, another lady appeared who I was drawn to in the same way. Except she was in a relationship she felt she had to deal with, and said she couldn’t talk to me because a connection formed that her partner would feel and call her on.

She was adamant, though, she had been my sister in a past life and we had children together.

The same type of thing happened three more times, and curiously enough, it was right after I met my current partner. Same pull, same attraction, same energies

I thought to myself, okay, I’m not that good looking and this is too good to be true. Something is clearly going on here.

However, it wasn’t until 2012 that I finally understood what.

Next: What was going on.

Soul Mates: The romantic soul mate or duets.

You meet someone and you instantly click with them.  It may be love at first sight, or at least at first touch. They make you feel great and they feel fantastic with you, too.

Yes, you have met your soul mate and fallen in love and everything is blissful, at least for the first eighteen or so months.

After that, the shine starts to wear off and you start to see all those faults that you’ve ignored till now because they didn’t matter to you.

Over time, the romance is dead, the passion is gone, and you’re partnered with someone who you can no longer stand.

You may even criticize everything they do and say and put them down in front of others.

Sound familiar to anyone?

What has happened to your ‘forever’? How did the dream become your personal nightmare?

If you were soul mates, how come you now hate each other?

The short answer is that you were not actually soul mates, but two people who matched each other’s frequencies or vibrational levels.

They created a connection with each other and shifted their thoughts, actions and vibrational levels to match each other.

The soul mate connection that a couple feels occurs when they are both in harmony with each other’s energies.

Any Empath will know that they can pick up on such things, and they may also find it possible to adjust on the fly to match an energy that makes them feel good and they want around them.

To use an analogy, it’s like two people singing a song, and they merge to create a duet that complement each other.  However, this may not be the songs they normally sing, and after a while, they revert back to their own melodies, which may end up sounding like a discordant mash-up.

Any relationship does not have to be bad, though, but it can become so if one or both of the partners are looking to see what they can get out of the other person, rather than what they can contribute as a whole.

Being connected, and staying connected is important, and that means doing things together and spending quality time together, even if it’s just eating dinner at the table and setting aside one day for each other each week.

Remember, people came in and out of your lives all the time. There is no law or rule that states that your feelings must last forever, and it’s rare that they actually do.

Often one of the partners ends up wanting something different out of life, or they wish to experience what it’s like with someone else.  That’s when they start singing a new song, and sometimes that song ends up attracting someone new.

Sometimes they are different, but more likely than not, they will be along the same lines. In any case, the duet you were singing together will both become solos.

It does not follow that you’ve failed or you’ve done something wrong when you find those intense feelings are no longer there.  You might want to desperately recapture those feelings, but unless there is a concerted effort on both parties part, it’s unlikely to ever happen. At least, not in this life time.)

Take the gift you’ve had from that relationship and bless it. Try not to let it hurt you or make you bitter. Easier said than done, of course.

The romantic soul mate connection can be, and is exciting. It’s energizing and your entire world can feel wonderful.  Just remember that it may not last as long as you think it might and once you get to know the real person, then you can decide just how much of a soul mate they are to you.

Remember, you can have many soul mates within your life time.

Next: The Twin Soul.

Soul mates – Introduction or if we’re all one, then how come I feel separate?

What is a soul mate?

You hear the term bandied around a lot, especially when people meet and fall in love.

They are each other’s soul mate and it will last forever.

Except it doesn’t.

Ever wondered why that is? Ever thought, well, if they are soul mates, how come they now hate each other?

I’m going to look at my understanding of what soul mates are, the different types, and why they may not always be a good thing to be with.

From what I understand, there are three types of soul mates. (There may be more, however I’ll focus on what I know.)

  • The Romantic Soul Mate
  • The Twin Soul Mate
  • The Family Soul Mate

Before we start, let’s look at what the soul is.

If you believe in a soul, then we can define it as that essence that gives life to a body. It’s the ‘you’ that houses the body.

Generally, it is said that we are all one, and all is contained within that oneness. That means that there is only one soul and everything that exists is a part of that soul.

We are all aspects of that one soul. The illusion is that we are all individual and separate from each other.

That’s how it should be so we can experience ourselves in relationship to all the other parts so we can know who we are in the presence of what we are not.

If that sounds complex, just remember that light can only know itself when there is dark around it.

(Also, if you accept the we are all one idea, and then everyone is just you in another form, even those you dislike.)

In this series, I’m going to take a look at soul mates and why things are not always what they appear to be.

Though soul mates sounds like a very romantic thing to experience, and what everyone is looking for, the reality may be a little different.

Next: The romantic soul-mate.