Month: April 2013

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I’m having a bad day and I DON’T want to talk about it!

Sometimes things don’t go right. You know those days where everything seems to go wrong in clumps?

You might have had a rotten night’s sleep and the traffic was unusually bad on the way to work. Your car chooses that day to develop some problem. Your co-worker or staff rings in sick so you end up having to do their work and yours, but problems that never happened before (or since) occur when you’re at your busiest, stopping you from getting what you need to do done… and so on.

I’m sure most of us, if not all have those days.

And I’m sure that most of us are tired, grumpy and just over it by the time they get home.

All you want to do is just zone out, rest, or do something that will amuse you or make you happy.

However, there are people who want to talk to you, and that is the last thing you want to do right then. You tell them, I’m sorry, I’ve had a really crappy day and I’ll deal with this tomorrow.

Then they’ll say, do you want to talk about it? You tell them no, but they insist, saying it might help.

No, what will help is if you leave me alone, and give me time to rest and re-centre! And no, I don’t want to friggin’ talk about it today. I just want to let it go and move on!

People certainly mean well when they want to help, but unless someone has asked for that help, then it’s certainly best not to try and insist on giving it.

Probably the best thing to say to someone who’s had a bad day is: Understood. You know where I am if you need me. (End of communication.)

We are surprisingly resilient, and get over our bad days pretty fast. We know what we need to do and as long as we’re left alone to do it, we will be fine the next day.

Bad days happen and it’s all okay.

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Depression Series: – Exhaustion or I’m too tired to read this right now.

Many depressed people have more than just depression going on with them. They also suffer from exhaustion.

I’m not talking about the kind of gosh-I’ve-been-up-all-night-and-I-really-need-to-get-some-rest type of exhaustion, I’m taking about long term, utter weariness, where everything is a struggle and just getting up and facing a new day is a challenge that is almost insurmountable.

This weariness saps our strength, our internal fortitude, and our resolve to get a move on. Worse, it adds to the depression because it means when we have to deal with things, we don’t have the energy to do so.

Exhaustion is that will make you collapse on in on yourself.

It also triggers the self-recrimination, victim process, and you become very hard, and self-depreciating. You may well blame yourself for all the things you can’t do because you’re tired, and feel that you need to go to extremes in your behavior to change things.

All the while, you know, in the very back of your mind, that you’re in a victim / poor me cycle, and you’re hoping others will notice your extreme behavior and understand that you are pushed way past your limits, and probably can’t take much more before you implode.

This is a very, very serious state to be in, and rest and renewing energies are what is needed. Unfortunately, for some, even proper sleep is a luxury rather than something that just happens.

Those with sleep disorders will be quite prone to this type of depression.

Depression is a drain on the soul, and that leads to the exhaustion people feel.

Exhaustion leads to greater depression, which in turn causes even more drain on the soul.

You can see it’s a vicious circle and one that is very hard to break out of because many other emotions tend to kick in extreme, almost undefinable levels, such as guilt, terror, panic, and the feeling of being a victim.

We are so screwed up as a society that we would rather people repress their emotions and not bother anyone than seek to heal the causes that produce such things.

This has to change.

This will change.

Even if we do it one person at a time.

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Being ridiculed is a small price to pay for helping even one other.

As an Empath, I’ve come across a lot of strange things that I would have sworn could not be true. As a sceptic, I tend to not take things on face value. As a cynic, I tend to look between the lines. As an intuitive, I have learned to trust my feelings completely.

Logic, as much sense as it makes, never produced the results I desired. Trusting my intuition has. It has taken me places that I thought I would never go. Do and see things that I would not have done otherwise, and produced a life that is extraordinary that defies logic, and what logic would certainly defy happening.

I wonder, though, from time to time, how the other people in my life perceive me.

On one hand, I am constantly surprised by how people accept my experiences and the information I share with them.

On the other hand, there are always those who feel I’m either trying to start a cult (yeah, that’s where the money would be and I could quit this office job!) or am pretending to be something I am not.

I, myself, inwardly groan, thinking, here I go again on a certain subject, such as being an empath, type of depression and how to cure them, or Bach Flower Remedies, which I wish I had as stake in, cause I’m sure I’ve raised their sales by 1000’s of bottles.

The challenge of being yourself, in spite of the fear, is one that so many face.

It’s not easy. Anyone who has tried it knows this. The fear of public ridicule, rejection or even finding out that everything you ever thought was wrong are always at the back of your mind. (And God knows, everything I ever believed in has been shaken to the foundation a few times in my life, though, my current experiences and belief system are working as they should.)

So why do it?

Because it has to be done. If one person finds the courage to be themselves. Tell their own story, no matter how improbable or impossible it might seem, and that one person goes on to inspire others to do the same, then it is worth it.

I put myself out there so others can.

I hope it inspires those who are holding back to do so, too.

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Spirit Guides – Part 6 – Many guides: Handle them – (A reference only World of Warcraft players will get!)

The following blog  is a 8 part series on Spirit Guides, my experiences, and what you might do in order to contact your own. 

Enjoy

Having written all that, it’s worth noting that the Dakini don’t appear to be my only guides. I do appear to have one main one, and he feels very different to them.

The energy of the Dakini is quite different to that of my main guide. It’s hard to explain the subtleties of how energies feel and even arguing with them is a different experience.

I’ve not won an argument with a Dakini.  They mostly seem to be one step ahead of me, and are amazing planners, able to plan many years in advance for major goals, and avoiding all the pitfalls along the way.

I have met an incarnated Dakini, (that is, one that is in human form and is aware of who she is).  I found she has the same traits. Extreme intelligence, amazing planning, and very hard to argue against and win. (Even when I know I’m right.) She also has knowledge about my agreement with them which I did not share, so that’s certainly validation there.

My other guide is chattier. When the Dakini talk, they do so in very short phrases or sentences. ,They don’t say a lot, but tend to repeat the same messages over and over again until I understand the meaning… and that can take a long time!

My other guide tends to be easier to talk with. In fact, it’s hard to shut him up at times. Once again, guides like this are hard to verify, except from time to time, I get information which I can check up on, and find that it’s correct. Sometimes it’s information I’m looking for. Otherwise, it’s a warning about something that is happening that I’m able to validate later.

This particular guide appears to also channel though other people, and some I’ve met claim they have also spoken to him.

One of the ways I like to communicate with him is by writing down the words I get. I guess you could call it a channel.

It does have its limits, though. I find that I can only write so long, before this fatigue sets in and I become mentally, and psychically exhausted.  Forcing the issue just produces information that isn’t as accurate.

Some subjects are easier to write about than others, and some just are completely blocked. Timing appears to be very important here.

Writing a channelling is also very useful when I’m trying to do an article, but can’t find the words. The result is always superior. I’ve not yet included any such works in this blog to date, but I am considering it.

The majority of my written work is information I’ve gained from my main guide.

There also is another type of guide, which is somewhat controversial.   That you are your own guide. The you, from a future point of time, has come back, and is now guiding the you of now.

I certainly feel that’s true for me. I know that sounds bizarre, but it feels as though there’s a part of me which is way more aware of what I’m doing, and is able to transcend time and space to give me advice and guidance.

Luckily, I’ve read of other such cases where people are able to return be their own guides, so it might sound improbable, but it’s still being experienced by others.

If you consider that time is an illusion, and not sequential, then it’s possible to return to a point in a timeline where you can help yourself. Does this create a paradox? Not if you consider that it’s all happening ‘now’, so all that is, what, and ever will be is happening all at the same time.

Yeah, it’s complex.

I’ve love to hear about people’s own experiences with their guides.

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Empath series – Spirits, ghosts, negative entities and all those fun things that can’t possibly exist.

Psychics and the spirit world.

Here’s the problem with empaths and other sensitive people: They see and sense and even hear things that others generally do not.

Scientifically, such things are hard to prove, if not impossible, as what we experience cannot always be recreated and tested under lab conditions.

I was listening to an old podcast the other day, and it was said that there are no haunted houses, only haunted people.

I thought about this and I think that’s a fairly accurate statement because sensitive people are the ones who will pick up on areas that have a higher amount of activity occurring. Someone who is not able to pick up such things will experience nothing noticeable happening, though that doesn’t mean they are not being affected. I’m sure there are plenty of sceptics who have suffered depression from unknown causes and the draining of their energies.

There are certainly those who love to mock those who do sense and see spirits and that’s okay. We need perspective. We need to not fall into the trap where we read every little sign as something paranormal, even when it may not be, and can be proven as such.

Still, I wonder just how many of these sceptics have put themselves into places where such activity is high?

I only muse on this subject because psychics, empaths, and sensitive people can, and do see things that do exist on other levels.  They may not have the ability to interpret the information correctly, after all, it is just another sense and not even our normal five senses will always be correct. Just ask someone who is colour blind if that’s not true.

As scary as it is for some, entities, spirits, beings, elemental energies do exist.  The normal person in the street may not see them, but that doesn’t mean they are not there.

Those who can detect them will be under no doubt that what they see is real to them, even if they do believe they are, perhaps, crazy.

I don’t believe they are, though. Everything exists on some level and some people are just more adapt, and attuned, at seeing them.

For those following this blog, I need to make it clear that I believe that these things do exist, and the reason why is because there will be blogs which will cover these things which will be important for empaths, especially those who are suffering from depression.

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Spirit Guides – Part 5 – Some guides just have no sense of humour…

Discovering the Dakini – Part 3

Guides are certainly not easy to proof that they exist, though I think I’ve had more than my fair share of proof over the years.

For instance, in regards to the Dakini, I remember when I was 12 or 13, I would see these beings flash into existence around me and dance.  It was always to the song Fantasy by Earth Wind and Fire.

From what I have found on the net, the beings do dance and when I’ve mentioned them  to other psychic friends, they say they seem them dancing around them, too.

I also noticed that the message ‘You still have no idea who we really are’ had finally stopped after all those years, which is what happens when I finally understand a message.

It’s clear to me that throughout my life, the Dakini have guided, protected and worked extremely hard to ensure I was on this path. The scope of their work is just mind boggling when I look at it with 20/20 sight.

They don’t seem to have much of a sense of humour about me being attacked and I’ve seen people come to grief who have attacked me without provocation. Many are the times when they’ve told me that if someone does not stop attacking me behind my back, they will take care of it and every time they have been right about who has been attacking me.

For instance, there was one time at my job where this work colleague was relentlessly attacking me behind my back (even though he had nothing to do with my job and I had no reason to suspect him.)  Let’s call him John. The Dakini said to me on several occasions that  John was attacking me, and that if he didn’t stop doing it, they would do something about it.

As time wore on, I started to hear from others that this was in fact happening, though John’s demeanour would suggest that butter wouldn’t melt in this mouth.

Then one day, while I was working back, he suddenly fell over, face first, for no apparent reason.  I had a nasty niggle that there was more to this than met the eye, but as he suffered from a muscular disorder, I thought it was something that was more likely to happen than not.

Then a while later, the Dakini suddenly asked me one night, as I was getting ready to sleep, if I wanted to send healing to John. I said, of course, and focused on sending light and healing, knowing that it would only help him when he was ready.

The next day he failed to turn up to work, and the day after that. Eventually, I was told that he had fallen forwards, and in an effort to brace his fall, fell on his hand, breaking it.

I asked the Dakini if they had anything to with this incident, and while they remained somewhat cagey, they did point out that I could absolved myself of any negative attacks on him as I had been sending healing the night before.

It is certainly worth noting that when he did return to work, he told me that he no longer was getting involved in office politics and keeping out of everything, and the attacks from him stoped. He also departed the office about six months later, and my work life was much more pleasant because of it as he was no longer turn my own staff against me.

This certainly was not the only incident of its kind, but it is one that stood out to me at the time.

Also, many messages that they have relentlessly give sent to me over the years started to make sense

Many of the messages I had over the years finally started to make sense. The trouble was, they were short and cryptic, and only made sense once I knew the context. But they were extremely accurate.

I have been told by others that they were to help awaken and guide me. (Which they have done a mind boggling job of doing.)

The Dakini have also, quite a few times, told me that they are loyal to me. They explained to me that before I reincarnated, I made an agreement with them that I would give them part of my energy in exchange for their help, guidance and protection. They thought this was a good agreement as this allowed them to more power to do things.

They also said I do not carry their energies as it would not have served my purpose here.

I’ve also, occasionally, sent them to help others, during times when I was tired and not up for doing the work needed to help others or clear attacks on them. I was constantly amazed that these people told me how they were contacted by the Dakini and verified my own experiences. I guess I shouldn’t be so amazed, really, not after all I’ve gone through and experienced, but there is always a small part of you that wonders just how much of it is really true.

There was also one time in 1996, when I asked them to prove to me that they were real. At the time, I just knew they claimed they were guides, but I wanted something to show me that it wasn’t in my mind. They told me I would have something in the next few minutes.

At the time, I was checking my car which was parked in a four hour zone for chalk marks, to see if it had been marked or not. As I approached it, this man, who I had never before said, if you’re looking for the chalk mark, it’s on that tyre. And so it was. I thanked him and he went on his way.

Was it coincidence, or someone just who was helpful? Something like that had not happened before, nor had it happened since, and I was told I would have proof.

My feeling was it was clearly that: Proof.

If anyone has had any similar experiences, I would love to hear about it.

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